My name is Suzette Brown and I have been a member of the Tony Alamo Christian Ministries for almost five years. These have been the best five years of my life. Through the teachings of my pastor, Tony Alamo, I have learned how to pray and get a hold of the Lord, how to prayerfully read the Bible and how to witness to people. I am so thankful for the Tony Alamo Christian Ministries because after I received salvation, I wanted to serve the Lord with all my heart and give Him my life, and the doors of this church were open for me.

I was raised in different Christian churches from a very young age. I loved gospel music when I was little. My Uncle Mike was a pastor and he told me about Hell when I was five years old. He told me of fire and everlasting torments. I asked him, “How do I become saved?” He prayed with me. I remember praying, “Lord, I believe you died on the cross for my sins and rose again on the third day. Come into my heart Lord Jesus.” I never was told about the power of the blood of Jesus to wash away my sins or that I had to keep the commandments of God. My uncle told me I was saved and couldn’t lose my salvation. I believed in “once saved, always saved,” and that no one could be perfect. This is what the churches told me. I really thought all I needed for salvation was to say a prayer and believe Jesus died on the cross for my sins. From the time I was 5 years old I believed I was saved.

When I was a senior in high school, I was going to a Southern Baptist Church. The pastor and the head of the choir were committing sins that turned me off from Christianity. Not that I was any better, I was a sinner too. I stopped going to church.

My last year in high school, I wanted to have fun and be cool. I was a straight A student. I started hanging out with the wrong crowd my last year in high school and I got addicted to methamphetamine. I started to do it every day. I found myself lying, stealing and selling drugs. My life spiraled downhill. I became so lost and so depressed. I felt so empty and alone. I left home to live with my boyfriend who was a drug dealer and I became so unhappy. I dropped out of college and stopped working and lived the drug life. I did methamphetamine for eight years of my life. I never wanted to be addicted to anything, but Satan had a hold on me and I couldn’t stop.

A couple of years after September 11th, I watched “Loose Change.” I watched the Twin Towers come down and I knew it was a controlled demolition. I began to do research on September 11th. I wanted to know the truth, who was responsible for September 11th. I didn’t believe our government. I did four to five years of research—thousands of hours of research. This research was like an escape from my life and became an obsession. At this time in my life, I would get high on meth and do research. One day I knew that what I was reading was a lie. I was sitting at my computer and I began to pray, “Lord, show me the truth about September 11th; I feel such a heavy burden to know the truth. I’ve done all this research. Show me the truth and weed out the lies.” The Lord answered me immediately. I began to find information on the Jesuits and the Vatican. I never knew anything about the Catholic Church. I watched a video online of Alberto Rivera (ex-Jesuit priest) speak at the Tony Alamo Christian Ministries in 1984. I wrote down on a yellow sticky note, “Tony Alamo Christian Ministries” and put it aside totally forgetting about the Tony Alamo Christian Ministries. I continued to do research on the Jesuits and the Vatican. I believed in the pre-tribulation rapture, so I thought I wouldn’t be here when the one-world government was here. God began opening up my understanding that we were living in the last days and that the Vatican was the Mother of Abominations. I didn’t want to believe it.

Around this time, my boyfriend came to me one day and told me the rapture wasn’t true. I got angry, but I didn’t know the Bible and I couldn’t tell him anything from the Bible to back up my beliefs. So, I began to read the Bible to prove him wrong. I couldn’t find anything in the Bible to back up my beliefs. I read Matthew chapter 24 Verses 29-30. “Immediately after the tribulation of those days shall the sun be darkened, and the moon shall not give her light, and the stars shall fall from heaven, and the powers of the heavens shall be shaken: And then shall appear the sign of the Son of Man in Heaven and then shall all the tribes of the earth mourn, and they shall see the Son of Man coming in the clouds of heaven with power and great glory.” I thought the Lord is coming after the tribulation, not before. Also I kept reading scriptures where He was telling his disciples to “watch,” and “to be ready,” “You don’t know the time, moment or the hour of My coming.” I asked the Lord, “Why are you telling your disciples to watch and be ready if we can’t lose our salvation? What are we watching for? ” The Lord spoke to my heart and told me because you can lose your salvation.” I was so angry with the churches. I had been lied to and deceived. I didn’t want to go back to church.

At this time, I was still lost and dead in my sins, addicted to meth. I stopped doing research on the Jesuits because I became afraid. I wanted to put it out of my mind. One day, I was high in my living room and this overwhelming conviction came upon me. I could feel the presence of the Lord. I began to weep uncontrollably. I fell down on my knees and cried out to the Lord with all my heart, and said “Lord, how can I say I love you and continue sinning, and how can I call myself a Christian and continue sinning?” My heart broke in a million pieces. I felt so ashamed, so broken, and so dirty. The Lord showed me I wasn’t saved and that I was on my way to Hell. I asked the Lord to show me some way to get right with Him, somewhere to go. I told the Lord that all the churches lied to me and there has to be somewhere to go. I didn’t want to go to Hell, I didn’t want to do drugs anymore, but I couldn’t stop. I didn’t want to sin anymore, but I couldn’t stop.

I came across the yellow sticky note I had written months ago, “Tony Alamo Christian Ministries.” I went online and started to read the gospel literature. I couldn’t get enough. The literature was filled with the Holy Spirit and was like healing waters to my broken soul. I read the literature all day and night. It was powerful. I read “The Popes Secrets,” “Evil-One World Government Agents Posing as United States Agents,” and “Another Pearl Harbor” and I knew our pastor knew the truth.

I had my boyfriend drive me down from the San Francisco Bay area on a Saturday night. I came to two services on Sunday. I could feel the Holy Spirit. I knew this was where the Lord wanted me, but I wasn’t ready. I went home and the Lord dealt with me for three weeks. I was holding onto drugs and my boyfriend. One day I was reading the tract, “The Road to Power” and I received the faith to get down on my knees. Satan was telling me I was going to go back into drugs so I didn’t want to say the sinner’s prayer. But this time the shackles were broken. I believed with all my heart that the Lord would deliver me from my sins and drug addiction. I said the sinner’s prayer with all my heart, making up in my mind, “I am going to serve the Lord with all my heart and never turn back into a life of sin.” I was on my knees in a hotel room. Jesus Christ set me free. I knew I was saved. I could feel His Holy Spirit come inside me and His blood wash my sins away. I was so happy. I was crying tears of joy. I wanted to run and tell everyone what had just happened to me. I had no desire to do drugs and sin. All I wanted to do was read the Bible and serve the Lord. I joined this ministry two days after I got saved on January 11, 2008. I packed two suitcases and got on a train and came here. I have never been so happy. I am still drug-free. I received the Baptism of the Holy Spirit and this is what I want to do with the rest of my life, to give back to the Lord because He gave His life for me on Calvary. The Lord truly can save and give you power to overcome sin. He did it for me and he can do it for anyone that will call upon Him with a sincere, repentant heart.