To Whom It May Concern:

My daughter, Desireé Kolbek, has called me on many occasions asking me to forgive her because the government didn’t keep their end of the bargain. She said she knew she went too far with all the horrible things she said regarding Tony and me, and that there was nothing she could do about it nor could she get out of what she had already done.

She stated in the last year, in many different phone conversations, how she wanted to keep me out of this—knowing that the FBI threatened—at gunpoint to take my life and Tony’s. Therefore, she thought that by helping to bring Tony down, it would spare me, her mother, her brothers, and sister. Now, as stated before, she has begged for forgiveness because she didn’t realize they were lying to her.

Desireé didn’t leave the church because of any physical or sexual abuse, she left because she knew I was coming through town and she didn’t want to be confronted about her disobedience and unruliness.

I am sickened by the government using, and I mean “using” my daughter, making deals with her. They are destroying what is left of her. She is frail and weak-minded and they are playing on that.

John Kolbek

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Letter from Mother

To all concerned:

As Desireé’s mother, I am enraged and grieved at the tactics the FBI used to make Desireé testify falsely against Tony Alamo: threatening at gunpoint her father’s life, along with Tony Alamo’s, and hanging her family (her mother, brothers, and sister) over her head, knowing she would do anything she could to protect us. This was confirmed in conversations she had with her dad, as well as on the stand during Pastor Tony Alamo’s trial. Evidence was brought out that Desireé had spoken with the FBI over 80 times. When I heard that, I was not at all amazed, knowing Desireé; I am sure such frequent phone conversations were imperative in coercing her to testify against Tony. Desireé has always, for years, been very close to her family. We have shared many good times, and I know her love for her family is apparent to anyone and everyone that has had even brief communication with her. Desireé has always had a special father-daughter relationship with her dad, loving him dearly. She believes, in going along with the FBI, she could save her dad’s life. Knowing that FBI agents and US Marshals already threatened her dad, that if he continued to go to Tony Alamo’s church, they would “fill him with bullet holes” like they were going to do to Tony Alamo.

When Desireé left the church, she did not contact the FBI; the FBI, along with Wellspring representatives, contacted her [Wellspring is the Cult Awareness Network, which is a brainwashing, mind-controlling station. The government calls it a “counseling center.” It is actually a government-controlled organization posing as a privately-owned organization. The government paid thousands of dollars to send them there, and they don’t disclose what happened there.], double-teaming in harassing and toying with her troubled state to get negative statements regarding Pastor Alamo. My sister, Lori Hayes, who she was living with at the time, told me she was alarmed at the fact that the FBI was trying to get ahold of Desireé.

After the first, September 2008, raid where six girls were taken, Desireé called us frantic, asking if we were all okay. When we told her we found out this raid was caused by statements she made to the FBI, she was emphatic that she had nothing to do with it. She became angry and seemed very confused at this and repeatedly said, “I promise I had nothing to do with this!”

Desireé has lived with many different people since she left the ministry, and never did we force her to return against her wishes. We, and the families that took her in, hoped that something good would come of it. My sister, Lori, for the safety of her own children, had to kick Desireé out of her house saying, “Desireé is a sociopath.” She was sorry she hadn’t listened to me before; realizing everything I said about Desireé was absolutely true. My mother, her grandmother, agreed. The conclusion that Tim and Jen Westemier came to (from the months they tried to help Desireé before she was kicked out of their house, forcing them to remove her belongings and change the locks on their doors for the safety of their children) was that Desireé had a mental condition. When I asked what they meant by this, they said being a pathological liar is a mental condition.

You, FBI, are torturing Desireé mentally. We have had conversations with Desireé where she was weeping and telling us she has tried, to no avail, to get away from you by running away and hiding from your reach. Leave my daughter alone!! You couldn’t get one testimony against Pastor Alamo without approaching the vulnerable people like my daughter Desireé, threatening them, making deals with them, and bribing them with gifts to win them over. I repeat, leave my daughter alone, you are hurting her!

Jennifer Kolbek

Desireé Kolbek is the 18-year-old daughter of John Kolbek. John is wanted by the government, they say, for spanking two 18-year-old men; but really they want to kidnap his other four children. The FBI told Kolbek’s daughter, Desireé, that they would drop the bogus charges on her dad if she lies about Tony Alamo. So she did. She left the church because she said she was afraid of her father, not Tony Alamo or any sex problems. This is the letter that she wrote Pastor Alamo before she left the church. Kolbek is innocent. The government wants his other four children. This is why he won’t come in. He hasn’t done any wrong. The government has kidnapped our children. They admit they want to close all true Christian churches!


I didn’t want to do this because I love you. But if there’s one thing I can’t take it is getting beat by my dad. You’ll probably say, no she doesn’t love me, she’s just a phony. Well, no I’m not. I wouldn’t do any of the stuff I do or at least try to do for you. I love you from the very depths of my heart, but you don’t seem to really care. I feel I can’t be myself around you, there’s a whole lot of love I would love to give to you, but you don’t give me a chance; you don’t know what’s in the depths of my heart like maybe someone who loved me should. I can’t handle getting beat by my dad. He’s freaked me out so bad, I go into recluse thing when I see people on TV or watching people get beat, it just shakes me up. I can’t handle it. And it’s not only that that I left, but also because I hate every single bastardly, rotten, phony, two-faced, etc. sister. To me it’s not worth to explain about these people. All I ever wanted is you to love me. Unfortunately I don’t have that. My heart is softer and more caring than people know, but I can only show it to someone who shows the same. I didn’t want to do this, because every time I thought of leaving, my heart would break and I would start weeping uncontrollably. I love you, always will. No one else can compare to you.


Later, the FBI sent Desireé and two of the other young women, who also lied in court, to be deprogrammed by the Cult Awareness Network at Wellspring. The FBI paid over $15,000.00 for them to be deprogrammed, plus many gifts. The FBI called it “counseling.” In court, they said they sent them to “the counseling station.” This is also what the FBI called it at Waco, when they “counseled” those Christian mothers, dads, and children.

Letter from Misheal Jones

Dear Tony,

I’m writing this letter for you to use in whatever capacity you can because it enrages me to see what was done to you in court. Of course, I wasn’t there, but what I’m reading in the news media is all the lies that were told on the stand against you, and nothing was said by your attorneys to prove them to be liars, when we all know that they are liars. It made it look like our side was admitting that what they said on the stand was true. It seems like they were just trying to keep their arguments to the charges, but the prosecution, who was originally ordered by the judge to do the same, went into all the rest of that garbage to try and smoke screen the charges.

As is well-known from all the media coverage, the government initially raided your office and home looking for child pornography. When they found none, and were left with absolutely no proof to these horrendous lies, they had to convince young girls that lived on the property to testify falsely against you to make their charges stick. They thoroughly questioned the 6 girls they took in the raid, hoping they could find something they could use against you, but of course, there was nothing they could say. Another girl they went after was my niece, Desireé Kolbek. She initially wouldn’t comply with them, so the FBI had to come up with a plan to pressure her to bring her false testimony. They coerced a young man, Seth Calagna, who was in the church, by having his sister calling him secretly and convinced him to leave the church and bring charges against John Kolbek, Desireé’s dad. Immediately after he left the church, he went to the police to press charges. Again, this all happened during the time that they were scrambling to come up with something to charge you with, after finding nothing when they raided. This was done to push Desireé into testifying against you in hopes she could make it easier on her dad. Desireé tried to run away to avoid being forced to testify, but they found her. In her own testimony, she admitted that the FBI called her, and had her call them, a total of eighty-something times. Obviously, they were pretty worried that she would change her mind or change her story, so they had to keep constant contact with her to make sure she didn’t.

First of all, Desireé is very lascivious, and was so even as a little girl. She, at a young age, wrote in her diary that she wanted to be a whore. She was infatuated with the rapper Eminem and planned to run away to him and be his whore. She, on several occasions, was caught doing lewd things to her baby brothers. Desireé has always been a liar and caused her parents much trouble, and anyone who knew her, knew her to be this way. Even the people who sided with her against you know that she is a liar. Anyone that is associated with her for even a short time finds out that she is a compulsive liar; yet they somehow succeeded in getting her to testify to exactly what they wanted her to say, and make her look believable, with no real cross-examination from your attorneys. There was so much that could have been said against her testimony; yet nothing was said.

Her mother could have testified to all of this and much more, but the judge stopped her testimony short just because she invoked her Fifth Amendment right, which she did only at the instruction from her attorney, when the prosecution asked her where she had been living so they could get her other four children. I know the prosecution questioned her on this subject because they wanted to discredit her. They were worried about all that she could say in her testimony. Her testimony could have destroyed Desireé’s credibility. I’ve never heard of a judge striking a testimony when someone invokes their Fifth Amendment right. Yet, this went unnoticed by the jury and general public because they were so taken in by Desireé’s lying testimony, which is exactly what the prosecution hoped would happen. They knew they couldn’t prove the charges against you, that you supposedly took minors across state lines for the purpose of sex. I was with you on many of those trips and know for a fact that all of those trips were for church business, and anyone who went on the trip was there to help with the many things you did on those trips, from continuing to handle all of the church business from your hotel room, to doing your daily radio programs, to the many different business projects you worked on, way too numerous to list. Those women flat out lied all the way through their testimonies, yet it went uncontested, making you to appear guilty.

I hope, for the sake of the truth coming out, that you will be allowed an appeal, and that all these things, and many more, will be brought out. I want you to know that even though I can’t be with you right now, I am still with you in spirit, and I pray constantly for you. I know the Lord will take care of you. Even though it seems so dark right now, it’s not over. Like you said, this is just the beginning. Thank you for all the messages that you are still bringing. They keep us going. You are such a testimony to me and an encouragement to continue on no matter what. I am ready to go to jail for the gospel if need be, and even die, because I see your boldness. Some people don’t understand your “harshness” and hatred against Satan and anyone being used by him, but it makes perfect sense to me. God needed someone like you to stand before the god of this world, Satan, and not back down, even though the whole world hates you. It’s all scriptural. These blind leaders of the blind don’t even realize that they are fulfilling prophecy. He also said there would be woe to those that were with child, so them going after our children is prophecy as well. The majority of the people in the world are so blinded, and don’t realize that they are just being led around by their noses by Satan and his Vatican-controlled government. But thanks to you faithfully teaching and constantly reminding us of the importance of studying the Word, we are not blinded to what is going on. We are going to be part of the few who will be prepared, watching, and ready for His coming. Again, I’m praying for you with all my heart and know I’ll see you soon.

Misheal Jones

The Letter from Desireé Kolbek to Eminem

March 6–24, 2004

Dear Diary,

For some reason I am so upset today. There was a thing on TV called Eminem. I really wanted to see it because I like him. I want to be a housewife with children and it just be me and my husband, me, and the children. Me and my husband sleep together. I only really love one man and want to be with him.

I want to find the love of my life. He’s probably in New York. I want to find Eminem. I love him. I wonder if my Grandmother knows who he is. Well if I go to my Aunt Kathy’s house I would talk to Laurissa about it.

I wonder if Eminem is married? I wonder if he would love me too. The first time I saw him I fell in love with him. I want to find him so bad. I don’t feel like any use in this church but to do duties. If I had mine own house I would be a wonderful housewife and so on. I don’t know how to express how I love Eminem. I hope he’s doesn’t have a girlfriend already. I wonder how old he is. I’ll probably say I’m 18 or something. Well I want to leave and get out of here and find the man I love who is Eminem. I love him very much so. I want to find out on the internet when I get kicked out and sent to my Grandmothers what his number is and talk to him. I wish I could see him and hold him in my arms and kiss him. I love him so much.

Today was fun I hope I am there on time to see Eminem before he finds a girlfriend. Oh how I love him so much. I about think of him all day and wish I was near him and be with him, I love him. Goodnight my love goodnight.

Right now I feel really depressed I love Eminem so much I love Eminem and want to be with him. I know he’ll love me alot because inside I really can be sweet but when someone says something I don’t like I want to grind their lips into the cement. Eminem is someone I loved for a long time.

I wish I had my own house and room and bathroom with just me and my husband. I guess the reason why I love him so much is because he’s the following: white, Rapper, handsome, looks Scandinavian, and dresses really cool. What I like about his face is his nose and eyes. He’s really handsome to my eyes. People say he’s “ugly.” I just go along with what their saying but inside I really like him. He’s someone that I love very much. My love I wish I could be with you. I love you. Love you with everything in me. I wish I could tell someone.

My B-day is in a couple of months which is May 20th and I’ll be 13 yr old I want to try to get a picture of him somehow and put it in my locker. Well I’ve got to go. I love you Eminem. I wonder what his real name is. Well bye.

I just got done with dishes and before that we had just come from shopping. Well I got alot of nice stuff and we went to a Chinese Restaurant which I was very glad now that I went. I saw some Chinese guy there. His head was shaved in the back and on the top. Well it was really neat. I saw him a few times clearing the tables. One time he so happened to look at me. We had like a eye contact for not even a minute Then I felt really weird inside. I would have looked longer but I didn’t want to be caught. Man if he would have went in to the restroom I would have waited in the hall because there was a door that was shut and inside were men and women’s bathrooms and nobody could see you in the hall. I would have pretended that someone was in there and waited till he came out. Man I don’t know why I feel different these days. Seems like I am a whore or something. If I knew where Eminem was I’d go for him. But I know where this Chinese guy is.

I want to run away the day after tomorrow at 3:00 am and figure out how to get to that Chinese guy but how will I find him at that time of night so I guess I would try to get out at 5:30. I just figured out what they are called. They are called Bus Boys. Maybe I’ll write a letter of some sort and tell him to follow Sandford and Terri.

Letter from Desireé to a Chinese Busboy

From someone who loves you very much. March 24, 2004, Friday

Bus Boy,

If only I knew your name I would call you by it. But all I know to call you is Bus Boy. I am the girl with dark blond hair that was sitting by the guy with a beard and Black hat and we were sitting at that round table. I need to see you. From the first glance of you your hair caught my eye. I think you really look handsome. But when we looked at each other or when I looked at you I felt love inside for you and couldn’t get you out of my mind. I need you to come get me but you don’t know where I live and I don’t know where you live but I am paying the woman that gave this to you $5.00 to give this to you and to bring your note back to me or you can follow her to Dollar General where she works and I’ll meet you there. Please don’t disappoint me. I love you & want to trust you & have faith in you. I’ll meet you at 7:30 pm Saturday. Maybe it will be better for you to send a note back so I won’t go out on Saturday at 7:30 and you not be there and then get caught. I will tell you my name when I see you.

Love you

P.S. until I know your name can I call you Tony and you can call me for the time being Monique.

Bus Boy follow us I would call you by your name but I don’t know it. But follow secretly. Tonight I will sneak out and come with you. Will you? Please do! We are driving in a bus. Please don’t be caught and make it obvious I Love you and want to be your girlfriend.

Thanks, Desireé


My LORD and my GOD, have mercy upon my soul, a sinner. 1 I believe that JESUS CHRIST is the SON of the living GOD. 2 I believe that HE died on the cross and shed HIS precious blood for the forgiveness of all my former sins. 3 I believe that GOD raised JESUS from the dead by the power of the HOLY SPIRIT 4 and that HE sits on the right hand of GOD at this moment, hearing my confession of sin and this prayer. 5 I open up the door of my heart, and I invite YOU into my heart, LORD JESUS. 6 Wash all of my filthy sins away in the precious blood that YOU shed in my place on the cross at Calvary. 7 YOU will not turn me away, LORD JESUS; YOU will forgive my sins and save my soul. I know because YOUR WORD, the Bible, says so. 8 YOUR WORD says that YOU will turn no one away, and that includes me. 9 Therefore, I know that YOU have heard me, and I know that YOU have answered me, and I know that I am saved. 10 And I thank YOU, LORD JESUS, for saving my soul, and I will show my thankfulness by doing as YOU command and sin no more.11

You've just completed the first step in a series of five steps which are necessary to receive salvation. Your second step is to deny yourself and take up your cross daily and follow JESUS for the purpose of mortifying your flesh, that is, for putting to death your own will, your soulful self, and the world with all of its lusts. All these must be baptized into the death of CHRIST.

Step three is your resurrection from the satanic life of Adam unto the sinless life of CHRIST. Step four is your ascension into a position of authority to reign for God with Christ on earth, and the fifth step is to reign for GOD in CHRIST on earth to the end for the purpose of bringing about the kingdom of Heaven on earth. You must learn the WORD of GOD, submit yourselves one to another, and do what the WORD says so that the church and the world may see evidence of your submission to GOD’S WORD, HIS order, and HIS authority in and by you.

Praise the LORD. May GOD bless and reward you abundantly.

Yours in the wonderful name of JESUS,
Pastor Tony Alamo

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Prayer footnotes:

1. Psa. 51:5, Rom. 3:10-12, 23 return

2. Matt. 26:63-64, 27:54, Luke 1:30-33, John 9:35-37, Rom. 1:3-4 return

3. Acts 4:12, 20:28, Rom. 3:25, I John 1:7, Rev. 5:9 return

4. Psa. 16:9-10, Matt. 28:5-7, Mark 16:9, 12, 14, John 2:19, 21, 10:17-18, 11:25, Acts 2:24, 3:15, Rom. 8:11, I Cor. 15:3-7 return

5. Luke 22:69, Acts 2:25-36, Heb. 10:12-13 return

6. I Cor. 3:16, Rev. 3:20 return

7. Eph. 2:13-22, Heb. 9:22, 13:12, 20-21, I John 1:7, Rev. 1:5, 7:14 return

8. Matt. 26:28, Acts 2:21, 4:12, Eph. 1:7, Col. 1:14 return

9. Matt. 21:22, John 6:35, 37-40, Rom. 10:13 return

10. Heb. 11:6 return

11. John 5:14, 8:11, Rom. 6:4, I Cor. 15:10, Rev. 7:14, 22:14 return